This weekend had been quite a blast with the Hyper Japan convention going on in London and me getting to experience Japanese culture by the buck loads with cosplayers, robots, samurais and interesting food. The interesting bits came later in the day though when I got invited to a private house party by a relatively close London gay friend to have seafood and to meet the interesting boys and girls he had in his list.
This ridiculously cute Malaysian boy opened the door to his apartment and I had to admit I was just a touch smitten. Lets call this lad M. Now there were alot of good looking gay boys coming over to the party but I enjoyed connecting with M due to similar backgrounds and lingos. By the time the drunkeness started kicking in though M began flirting with another boy D whom was totally his type it would seem. D on the other hand seemed to have a thing for me. D was one of those top boys and M was one of those cute bottom boys. Now I noticed a pattern here with all the top lads always having a thing for me but the bottom boys eyeing past me. Makes me wonder if I have become too bottom for my own good.
No really it does make me ponder a little when I don't usually need too much effort to get tall assertive dominant top men interested but usually cannot for the life of me get much spark out of the prettier more passive boys. It's not necessarily a bad thing, but it does call into question my masculinity sometimes and makes me ponder. After hanging out with M for most of today he mentioned how he saw me more as a friend. I think with the cute twunky Subang boy I met over summer being more into manly men too, I would probably fall under the friends category if I were to confess anything to him as well.
I still get my fair share of men though, so I cannot be half bad. Men of prominence and ambition that pamper me and shit. But still, maybe I just want to have my cake and eat it. Maybe a reinvention is in order with a manlier less pretty hair cut, pumping hell of alot more iron at the gym and all that good stuff. Maybe I'll grow a beard? Or maybe any form of reinvention will just chase away my current market and make me wind up in an awkward middle spot. Neither pretty boy/cute enough to get certain top men nor rugged and tough enough to get the bottom boys. Ah well, at least everyone agrees I'm pretty damn straight acting so I needn't embarrass anyone with my campness.
Haha, so you are saying you are the cute bottom type but you fall for all the bottoms too?..
ReplyDeleteIf that's what you are saying i'm exactly the same.. lol
Haha.. Leonut, u just made it out of the point. But I do wonder of what and how being categorize as friends. Sometimes it does make me think about why do all these categories are for? I just don't really understood that. :)
ReplyDelete@Leonut Haha, well I guess I might get categorised that way by some. And I have a wide variety of taste in my men, just so happens some bottom boys fall into it! Can't be everyone's cup of tea sadly heh.
ReplyDelete@Eric Hmm yea some people disagree with casting labels altogether but its a case by case basis with people I reckon. Some people might think my definitions are full of shit, be that as it is. As for friends, we've all been in the friendzone and it's just my luck aha.
Unfortunately some of us do fall into those damned stereotypes. All depends on the type you're looking for.
ReplyDeleteAt least you are still in the market. I'm apparently too straight for any party's liking, which is good for now for me to focus. But sometimes I do ponder if I should ponder about it or not...
ReplyDeletehahahah oh i totally feel u i just wish cute people would actually crush on me.
ReplyDeleteand lol on the use of lad there = ) ya studying in London are ya?
I'm sure you've had your fair share of cuties crushing on you aye? Yea sorry North England used the lad word quite abit so it stuck haha. Based in London now, what about you?
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