So this Singaporean lad I've been talking to for a bit decided to invite me over to Taipei to celebrate his birthday with him and his mates. He always gave good vibes and was always open to me visiting him down under though as fate would have it, we ended up in a place quite some distance away from either of our home bases.
I would have to say, I felt a certain connection from him in Taiwan whilst hanging out with him there that I wasn't quite anticipating in awhile. I suppose sharing the same bed and adventures would do that after awhile. Though I suppose my mixed signals and apprehensive nature might have put him off by the end of the trip, I did appreciate the connections we were making throughout.
I could tell though by the end that a distance had slightly grown and when we said our farewells, his fire for me had dimmed. It was a pity, only as another opportunity began to flutter away did I suddenly realise a sense of imminent bygone chances once more. Its a bad habit I am so often fond of. Though I suppose the distance between us would never have made things feasible in the first place, I still feel the growing rift.
At least for a time, in the blur of the drinks, sights and sounds of the dizzying Taipei lights and clinking of pristine glasses, I had for a moment recalled a potential for a flame to brew. I suppose my aloofness cost me another one yet again. He was decent, I think I've caught the feels. Now as he gradually fades away from attachment to me I reckon I'll regret yet another lost cause.
I need to stop pushing people away. I hope you'd still give me a shot SG boy. Let me show you KL again some time. You won't regret it.
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